I have been into so different phases lately. Searching for my own photography style, identity, relationships… Who am I ? What will I do after high school ? I can’t help myself thinking that make a living by selling my photoshoots / photographs is the thing I am aimed at. I want to test new things, new styles, new techniques, new poses, and new angles, discover new places, edit differently, compose more, meet new people and see again those I miss, shoot nude, professionalise my work, reflect me. Create more. I just have this deep thirst of freshness and innovation.
I don’t even know why I am actually writing this down. I guess that it is a necessity to express myself on what I have been dealing lately. Sharing my insecurities here is new, but hey, why not, I need it. The last couple of months had been weird. We all have our struggles, and dealing with personal issues may be difficult. Sometimes it is just okay to not be okay. Now more than ever. It is like a thunderstorm manages to drive me away from who and what I love. So I restarted writing in my journal and god damn this is so good. I know what happened, I am not sure of what will happen and I’m afraid of it. I do not look for pity or anything but it was so necessary for me to say it loud. I just hope that I will find my way back to the glitters. As Kendrick Lamar is used to sing, “All my life I has to fight, all my life was hard time but we gon’ be alright”. I have confidence that all will be okay someday. It is just a bad time to come by, but here I am.
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and a special thank you for being my stars, I am so grateful to be cheered by such beautiful souls and creative people ♥♥ I love everyone of you